"Pretty Outrageously Hot"

The aftermath:

Pink confetti on pavement, plan B and somebody is holding your head as you weep.

No.
Not for me.

Boundaries were set, I cleared my test.
In this growth I know intrinsically what will be good for me and what is just smoke and mirror tricking me into self-worth.

Of course, it would have been fun.
It always is,
But then the headache and joint pain later.
The tired eyes and the text that never comes.

So I delighted in the hunt, transparent about intentions.
It made it so much better to be honest.

And I really racked up a list of potential lovers.
This time I really am sad this place isn't for me.

I said, "I like your hair"
Invitations to wine and you and all I could do was smile.
Since that's how it goes now.

Yes, it's still covering up a hole that needs to be fixed with inner soul work,
And it's blowing up my courage and self-esteem.

If we all try to stay honest we could really make something happen.

You told me I was stunning.

All I can do is say, "thank you."

I'm beaming from within and soul radiance is certainly pretty outrageously hot.