The list

"put it on the list," we say and when we say that, we mean,
"let's prolong this courtship, I want to hold on to what is here and now."

It's growing, and it's growing fast, and we have much to accomplish before the sun sets.

We went to 3 different parks and I kissed you in all of them.

This is different, and it's slow.

Motions of what is to come, but here and now it's solid and steady and we laugh at how we got here.

Lots of talk, and you remind me of someone I used to love.

It's simple really.

So I try to balance a big blue ball on my feet and then I add the purple one, and they all come tumbling down but I'm just playing here so nothing can hurt me.

I said a long time ago, "I'm afraid I'm going to hurt you," and then I did, and badly.
But more so, I hurt myself. I didn't know.

So this time, it's steadying the tightrope and learning how to balance alone as I walk this narrow bridge.

We shall not be afraid, no we mustn't be afraid.

Another you told me you still have a residual crush on me and I keep getting texted by another who I clearly stated I was not into.

I don't get it at all and life is too damn funny.

But here I am, and sharing the laughs with you, and that's all I can say for now.

We make lists, and hope we get to cross some items off before we fade into each others' backgrounds.

Maybe the tree house in South America will have to wait, or maybe we will get there and live a long prosperous life, we just don't know, but the list might help us get there...

and this is the thought for the moment,

at least we will never die of boredom.
no, we got that one solved,
and smiley faces in hot soup are so damn good.
You smile and me too, and I just want to cuddle.